aninvincibleexistence:

sexpulse:

Ha

God, I thought this for such a long time. Nearly 2 years. 2 years. The first time I had been alone since I was 15. I had always jumped from one relationship to the next while I was still in the previous one… (I’m not proud of it.) But I decided to take my time. I left you. I regretted it. I missed you, hated you, loved you, wanted you back, wished I would never see you again. I ate, drank, starved, slept, kept busy, did nothing, cried, threw things, got angry, swore, drove like a maniac…and then one day I woke up and I was okay. Then I was been than okay. Then I was good. Then I was happy. And that’s when I met someone that put you to shame. I am, however, still sorry you’re not the same person. It’s a damn shame. I liked you better then. Now you’re a prick.

(Source: little-blackbook)

I’m so sick of heartache and heartbreak,

I just want to meet someone who makes me forget about it all. Even if it’s just temporary. I need to feel those warm, tingly butterflies again… to reassure me that those feelings are still possible to have.

For reals.

rethinking things.

i’m an idiot. omg i am an idiot. let me go cry a little bit. asdkfalsdf;aldsfadslfkalsdfasf.

ugh letting go can be so hard sometimes.

even when you know there’s nothing to hold onto anymore. I guess the only thing that should be held onto is the memories.

Whew!

Interview went great! What a cool place to work. They had a mini golf course in the office. And the guy who interviewed me, the CEO, was wearing shorts and a Tshirt… And no shoes! Lmao. I’ll hear back next week.

About to hop on the train and go downtown.

I have an interview in River North in approximately three hours. I’m going downtown a little bit early so I can maybe surprise my cousin who works at a restaurant across form Millennium Park. She is an aspiring pastry chef. I hope she is working today! If not, I will just sit at a cafe and drink some coffee and relax until I have to find my way to the interview.

But I’m excited for this interview. I kind of just applied to it because I was bored waiting to go to class one day, and it seemed somewhat interesting. When I got a response the very next day, it was nice surprise. I’ve done a lot of research on the company, and it seems like a great place to work with a promising future. I am 1 of 10 people they are interviewing for the position…. sooo…. yeah it is a little bit intimidating. I don’t really expect to get it, but I hope for the best!

These personality predictions always amuse me. I think my predictions are mostly correct I’d say?

Making some cinnamon rolls with one of my Bros, then packing up my apartment.

Soooooooo crazyyyy! I can’t believe I’m leaving this place.

The more I watch HIMYM the more I realize how much I am like Robin omg

I’m well into season two now, watching every episode in order. Season two is when Ted and Robin are dating. Their relationship sort of reminds me of a relationship I had once with a guy, and that’s when I realized I have a lot in common with Robin:

• When I’m in relationships, I don’t know “how to be a girlfriend”
• I hate revealing my emotions
• I hate confrontation with people and talking about ‘serious stuff’
• I want to live MY life and not be tied down by a guy yet
• Couple-y, romantic gooey stuff I kind of despise
• I was very tomboyish growing up
• I have a journalism degree (aka potential newscaster right here)
• I prefer beer 
• ……………..

I guess this is just one reason I love watching this show! It’s a show a lot of people can relate to. I know I can, especially at my age and the point in my life that I’m at. I like to think it can help me out with my own life problems, even if it is a fictional show. I think that’s what makes it such a good show to watch.

Well, I’m done with this chapter of my life… time to move to the next one

I officially graduated on Saturday. So crazy. It hasn’t hit me yet that I’m done with college. Or that I’m leaving this place for good. Well, it sort of has. I’ve already had to say my goodbyes to a few of my good friends who have already left. It is so bittersweet.

A big change is really what I’ve been needing in my life. When you get too comfortable with life, in a way it can become kind of dull. This huge change of moving back home and moving on to the next chapter of my life is very exciting.

I’m spending one last week here, enjoying a few last laughs with some of my friends who will still be here, and relaxing, and having some fun and celebration. It is going to be so weird and so sad packing up my apartment and driving out of town. But I have a lot to look forward to back home. And I am ready to dive into whatever is next in my life. I am ready to meet some new faces, and have a new crop of potential dates. I will get to see some old friends I haven’t seen in months. I have a lot of graduation gift cards to spend. Plus, I have another interview next tuesday downtown in river north Chicago, which is ideally where I want to work!  If anything, it will be more good interview practice. I hope something works out soon. I know it will. For now, I just have to sit back, relax, and wait.